For Men Like Us
Title : For Men Like Us
Author : Brita Addams
Publisher : Dreamspinner Press (BUY HERE)
Genre : M/M, Historical
Length : 186 pages (e-book)
Published : September 12, 2012
After Preston Meacham’s lover dies trying to lend him aid at Salamanca, hopelessness becomes his only way of life. Despite his best efforts at starting again, he has no pride left, which leads him to sell himself for a pittance at a molly house. The mindless sex affords him his only respite from the horrors he witnessed.
The Napoleonic War left Benedict Wilmot haunted by the acts he was forced to commit and the torture he endured at the hands of a superior, a man who used the threat of a gruesome death to force Ben to do his bidding. Even sleep gives Ben no reprieve, for he can’t escape the destruction he caused.
When their paths cross, Ben feels an overwhelming need to protect Preston from his dangerous profession. As he explains, “The streets are dangerous for men like us.”
I can’t imagine what it must be like to crave the affection of a man while living in fear of imprisonment for my desires, or beatings and death. That’s the reality the MCs, are living in. They’ve made it through a war but not without scars, inside and out. War affects men. It makes some men heroes who do things they never knew they could. For some it brings out their savage nature. This is the story of two men whose lives are forever altered because of such evil. Parts of this book weren’t easy to read but I just had to know the entire story.
For Men Like Us spans 1814-1820 in London and is told from the POV of Ben and Preston. Ben is seeking redemption and peace. He has lived through some truly horrible situations but he’s a survivor. Ben has some unfinished business with a man name Preston whom he finds at a whore house in London. He watches him from a distance but what started out as a need to atone quickly turns into an obsession. By accident they meet one night and Ben’s purpose becomes altered. He initially purchases Preston’s company in the idea of finally speaking with man about getting him out of that unsavory situation but once Preston turns on the seduction he can’t resist what the man is offering. Despite Preston’s claim he chose that profession he sees the sadness in the man and desperately wants to help him. Ben needs to save Preston from that life for his own Sanity.
Preston is numb after he watches his partner die in the war. The only thing that seems to break through is sex. After losing his clerk job he turns to a life as a selling his body for money. One night an older gentleman buys his company and he finds he is very attracted to him. He’s handsome and shows him kindness. He also has a kink for being punished, a skill that Preston excels at. When Ben asks for a weekly arrangement Preston agrees immediately and the two become close very quickly. The intimacy that grows with Ben helps Preston finally break free from his haze and realize he can care for someone again and in fact has feelings for Ben. Ben knows he shouldn’t be getting attached to Preston but he can’t help falling in love with him. The secret he keeps will surely drive Preston from him forever. After all, he can’t forgive himself, how could anybody else? Ben’s guilt is at war with his desire to cling to the happiness he’s found with Preston. The guilt and nightmares of his torture become too much to hide from his lover and Ben starts to pull away from Preston. Preston realizes it’s more than insomnia but thinks the reason for the nightmares are hidden those scars that cover Ben’s body. If he could just get Ben to talk to him about what’s wrong he could help but that’s the thing Ben is most of afraid of. He knows the truth will eventually catch up to them and he’ll lose Preston.
I really enjoyed this book. The characters are damaged and flawed but manage to keep living their lives. Neither Ben nor Preston feels worthy of love, which I think makes their love story that much more poignant. Preston’s presence feeds both guilt and happiness in Ben. He’s so conflicted. Preston gets to be happy in the relationship since Ben is holding all the secrets. Of course they can’t stay hidden forever.
I won’t say this book was all gloomy because there were some very sweet moments. For me to like a book the pain has to be worth pleasure and at this book hit that note for me. The sex was hot mainly because you could feel the strong connection between the guys. Overall I was left feeling very good because this is basically a story about what the human spirit can endure. Ben and Preston made it through and found their happiness. ❤
Rated 4.5 stars by Whit